I don’t like change!

I don’t even know where to start with this subject! How about this ~ I am in the midst of changes like I’ve never experienced. “Things” are moving so fast that it just makes me tired! First of all, I recently turned 76 years old. Ouch!! Change has never bothered me much before, even when it was a change (or two or a thousand) I didn’t like. I’ve always adapted and made the best of what was necessary at the time. I think I’m going to blame it on COVID – seems fair to me. When COVID is mentioned I think we all shudder a little bit, and probably have stories to tell about the unwanted changes we faced at the time. At that time though, we didn’t have much choice about a lot of things.

As for me, at that time, I lost my “at home” business because I did alterations/tailoring and it just so happened that I was in the middle of my busiest time of the year – prom seasons AND wedding season. I immediately lost all that business and the dresses were picked up right away – unaltered and, of course, unpaid.

At about the same time I was diagnosed with heart issues and breast cancer! I got through it all and after a radial mastectomy, chemo, and radiation, spent the following months recovering and not working. God knew about it before I was ever born – He wasn’t a bit surprised!

• Psalms: 139:16 : Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed, and in Your Book they were all written, the days formed for me, when as yet there were none of them.

Are you willing to do it God’s way?

Sometimes we just do what we want to do without asking God about it first! (Ask me how I know!) In my defense, I didn’t know better. Really. Unfortunately, it took years of wrong decisions, heartache, giant negative results from decisions I made, and wanting it NOW!

Sound familiar? As I now have more life behind me, and less in front of me, I’m hoping to help others to avoid the mistakes I’ve made. It’s not easy, by the way. However; if you ask for God’s help, and follow His lead, you will be more at peace and more in love with our Heavenly Father than you can imagine!

We live in a world where almost everything is instant and we like it that way, although it kind of keeps us from asking and waiting on God way too much! It’s not that we even consider being disobedient or even imagine that God might have a better plan or a reason for us to seek Him on the matter. It’s just part of our humanness, and, after all, He did create us.

I can truthfully say that I was raised in church, didn’t miss too many services, and tried very hard to “do the right thing.” Now though, I can clearly see after living almost my entire allotted years, having “done it my way” was not all it’s cut out to be!

I’ve had a really hard life, and I’m sure I’m not alone in that. I blamed God for a lot of what happened, even though now I realize it wasn’t Him. It was me – what a surprise! Looking back (always easier), I can tell you now that my growth in Him and my current peace in life all worked together for my good. With each trauma, failure, mistake, wrong decision, and after asking God each time why He allowed such pain and rejection, He would always love me into seeing the truth. He taught me how to come to Him first, and how to wait for Him (that’s still the hardest part). As I sought Him in prayer, He began to put a hunger in my heart and a desire to know more about Him and His ways. Through it all, as I continued to walk through my life, I was growing in Him but still doing my own thing (innocently, most of the time). My heart was still in learning mode (and I’ve learned it always is and always will be – maybe even after I reach heaven!

I will continue this subject with the next post. I encourage you to seek Him and ask Him whatever it is that you want to know, and then YIELD as He guides you. Don’t get in a hurry. God is ALWAYS on time and even if you have an appointed deadline that you think you cannot miss – trust HIM, not the deadline. God many times waits until the midnight hour to give you what you need. He will continually test your faith in Him. He wants you to know He is greater than any/all deadlines, and His way is always the best way for you!